the middle part

i think about all the crappy and hard things I have been through, and I wonder what good can come of these experiences. on a higher spiritual level, i know that everything we experience, good and bad is supposed to be learning lessons that bring us to a higher level of growth and advancement. at the time though, it is really hard to see the gain because you are so focused on the pain. but now that i have lived a good three decades heading into my fourth, i know that everything i have gone through has brought me to a better place.

i've read tons and TONS of self help books, which should come as no surprise, and the one thing i notice that is common with most of these books is that when "patients" talk about their experiences, they talk about how they were in the beginning of their healing (ie. I'm addicted to alcohol and bon bons, and then what their life is like after the healing ie "wow, dr. (insert famous author name) program really helped me. I am now sober, and a healthy weight.") the thing that almost none of the books talk about is all the pain in the middle of the healing. i hope to share some of the middle parts of my healing here.

those of you who have been through some major healing like surviving a major disease, the loss of a loved one, etc know that the hard part is actually the middle part. the part where you cry, get angry, rip off the bandages, and basically hurt. in order to heal the wounds and get to well being, you have to go through and feel the pain.

it's not easy beating any addiction, be it alcohol, sex, smoking, shopping, or food. there will be more downs than ups. i hope that by sharing my experiences in this blog, i can inspire other people to break their bad habits too. because if i can do it, so can you.