temper! temper!

dang these hormones!

why can't i control my temper? the slightest thing can drive me screaming mad these days! aaargh! there are people that i actually want to throttle and kick, can you believe it? i'm so glad some of them are not around because i can't promise to behave myself if i do see them. i feel like an amazon warrior with an axe to grind. a valkyrie on a motorbike weilding a sword. beware all who cross my path.

breathe patricia. breathe.

the stress is so not good for me. i will focus on happy thoughts. pink. candy floss. shopping. casseroles. ice cream. butterflies. fairy dust. polkadots. moonbeams...

and exhale.

not so good

it's been a very stressful week for me. vito's many attempts at wall art, his asthma, his vomiting, and now his bloody accident all combined to make this week very challenging. hosting a get together last friday when i had no help didn't make things easier either. and neither did having to paint the living room all by myself. i'm physically and emotionally tired.

i wish i could escape for a few hours and have coffee with any one of my friends. there are some people i miss the most in times like these. i miss marilu, who will always get me out of self-pity and give me renewed energy for what i need to do and will probably even volunteer for it. i miss mimi, who will never fail to make me laugh and who knows how to relate to my moods. i miss chelo, who brings sunshine wherever she goes and knows how to lift anyone's spirits. and i miss my sister, who knows what i think before i even say it.

so i console myself with food. yes, food. i haven't been gorging or overeating. but i have been stealing some of vito's brownies and biscuits. i wasn't prepared for this week, i didn't buy snacks for myself. so whenever i get really tired, i just open the fridge and dig into whatever i find. chocolates and brownies are within easy reach and give me temporary joy. hey, sometimes a girl's just gotta have some chocolates to deal with a bad day.