i cannot pretend that it doesn't bother me. i cannot put on a smile and act like everything is wonderful when it's not. but i will promise you that i will stop complaining. i'm so tired of listening to my own whining.
yes i sometimes feel like i'm alone in this. sure my dear hubby is ever so supportive and helpful, and i know that if he could only siphon away all the nasty symptoms he would, just to give me a rest. every single night i pray that tomorrow will be a better day. tomorrow i will have more energy. tomorrow i will find pleasure in the world around me. tomorrow the hormones won't pull me to the depths of misery.
i should be stronger than this. stronger than my hormones. stronger than circumstances. i have willed myself to triumph over trials much more challenging than this one. it's just pregnancy hormones after all!
from now on, i hereby resolve to:
- find good books to read that will lift up my spirits
- call a friend for a chat whenever i feel down again
- focus on one task at a time and try to keep my mind on it and not on my queasiness
- take out my camera and start looking at the beauty around me
- get excited about my coming trip to cebu - maybe i should focus on the lechon i will eat? =)
- just grin and bear it. i'm sure it won't last forever.
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patricia, you're not alone,were here for you...even though were far, just say, we will ring you...=)you'll get through this..*tight hugs*
Hi Pat. I understand how you feel. You can call any of US and we will talk about beautiful things including an upcoming food trip when you're here. hehehe..
Smile.
great outlook! enjoy your vacation in cebu!!! when you get back from that vacation you'll be on second trimester =)
chelo - how i wish jud we were neighbors because i'll be on your doorstep every single day! you have a gift for making people laugh and feel cheerful and i sure need a dose of chelo in my life right now. =)
mai - i'm already looking forward to it! i miss so many cebuano dishes!
t - bitaw, that's one thing i can really look forward to! =)
hi Pat, i so understand what you are going through but you already know that this too shall pass.
i read a lot during my two pregnancies. with guela i reread my entire agatha christie collection, and with max, i read my collection of the mitford series by jan karon.
reading alone got me through the days i did not want to get up from bed. i know this sounds strange but why not wallow in it for a while, it helped me get tired of being tired and lazy.
i dunno if you can enjoy misery but i just accepted it and before i knew it, i was up and about, ready to take on the world. so whine if you feel like whining. =D
*gakos*
i know you know that, that too shall pass :) counting the days til you're here.
take care, pat. hope to chat with you soon.
chiara - thank you so much for understanding! you don't know how much that means to me! yes, i've been reading voraciously - and i mean 2 or 3 novels a day. not much i can do anyway since i'm always exhausted. =) but i've had days now when i didn't feel like i wanted to die, so i guess that's a sign of better things to come. =D
mimi- gakos pud ko. =) see you soon!
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