the food trip

i'm starting to feel hungry, and that's a good sign. =) it means the nausea is easing out. i was just telling my dear husband that my cravings are in full force, unfortunately they're for hard to find filipino food:

1. guso and sinugbang pork belly (this is chelo's fault for posting it)
2. larsian barbecue
3. itlog na maalat with tomatoes and cucumber
4. suman and manggo
5. puto bumbong
6. lechon! with puso! and achara!
7. spanish sardines
8. puto maya and sikwati
9. the ginger sauce in ding qua qua/harbor city
10. really cold buko pandan
11. leche flan
12. gourmet daing from bacolod, best eaten with number 3 and a plateful of bahaw =)

ahh, i can't wait for our trip!

enough of this

i cannot pretend that it doesn't bother me. i cannot put on a smile and act like everything is wonderful when it's not. but i will promise you that i will stop complaining. i'm so tired of listening to my own whining.

yes i sometimes feel like i'm alone in this. sure my dear hubby is ever so supportive and helpful, and i know that if he could only siphon away all the nasty symptoms he would, just to give me a rest. every single night i pray that tomorrow will be a better day. tomorrow i will have more energy. tomorrow i will find pleasure in the world around me. tomorrow the hormones won't pull me to the depths of misery.

i should be stronger than this. stronger than my hormones. stronger than circumstances. i have willed myself to triumph over trials much more challenging than this one. it's just pregnancy hormones after all!

from now on, i hereby resolve to:

• find good books to read that will lift up my spirits
• call a friend for a chat whenever i feel down again
• focus on one task at a time and try to keep my mind on it and not on my queasiness
• take out my camera and start looking at the beauty around me
• get excited about my coming trip to cebu - maybe i should focus on the lechon i will eat? =)
• just grin and bear it. i'm sure it won't last forever.

hyperacidity and heartburn

yesterday was absolutely the worst day i've ever experienced in my pregnancy. i don't know why i've been having hyperacidity when i'm eating constantly, but i am. and it's so extreme it renders me almost incapacitated. i can't think, i can't do anything, i just feel so miserable. i normally don't bother manuel when he's at work but yesterday i had to call him because i needed to cry out my pain.

i bought an antacid but it only made things worse. 10 minutes after taking it i was back to hugging the bowl. i don't know what else to do! i called my sister in australia and she said the only thing i can do is try to bear it. i still don't know how i was able to force myself to cook dinner and clean the house but i somehow did. i made sinigang with lots of veggies. sinigang is comfort food for me. by 8pm i was feeling better.

please let it be an isolated incident.