i've been avoiding the weighing scale for i don't know how long. i suck at facing the truth. every time i manage to enrol in a gym and some fitness consultant tries to get my current weight, i mutter protestations just so i won't see exactly how terrible the situation is. as if by not seeing the numbers, i can change the facts. as if by not knowing, i can deny the truth.
today i tried on a dress that i wore early last year. i looked pretty in that dress, i loved the fit, the style, and i loved the memories that came with my wearing it.
i couldn't close the zipper.
waves of shame washed over me as i realized how much i really have gained. and this time, my bed rest of 4 years ago cannot be used as an excuse. sure i did gain a lot of weight (20kg) when i was pregnant. but i have gained some more in the past 2 years.
i will weigh myself today, and heaven help me if that needle doesn't move back 10 lbs every month.
reality bites
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Posted by Patricia at 3:28 PM
Labels: weight gain, weight loss
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Weigh yourself this time but don't obssess about it. Do it once a week so that you could see the difference. I myself feel like taking a pass with my weigh-in this Thursday. It's summer - there's just too much going on. But my friends would always tell me it is better to know the enemy. So by Thursday, I will probably take the courage to step on that weighing scale just to know.
hi tita, yes, i won't obsess about it. i think i also have to rearrange my environment. being a stay at home mommy encourages snacking. i should stop buying fattening snacks. i think that'll help a lot.
but i can't stop denying the facts. so i must face that weighing scale as often as i can, and not regard it as my enemy.
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