i have reverse anorexia. anorexics typically see themselves as fatter than they actually are. in my case, even though i am seriously obese, the image that i have of myself in my head is that of a normal person. yes, even when i look in the mirror. i'm fat, and i know i'm fat. but if you ask me to draw a picture of myself, i would draw a thin person. well not super thin like kate moss, but me in my ideal weight.
this image gets shaken whenever i see a photo of myself. that's why photoshop is my best friend.
this erroneous self-image is partly what prevented me from acknowledging my weight problem. even as the pounds kept piling on, my self-image remained skinny and allowed me to live comfortably in denial of the problem creeping up all around me.
the dsm (diagnostic and statistical manual for mental disorders) doesn't have a category for cases like mine. the closest thing would be body dysmorphic disorder, and that's what people who've had 100+ plastic surgeries have. did you see that girl who wants to look like barbie? yep, she has bdd.
but maybe i do have it in some degree. otherwise i wouldn't see myself as a sultry siren when in fact i'm closer to a whale.
i think i know my problem...
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Posted by Patricia at 4:10 PM
Labels: health, neuroses, self-image, slimming, weight loss
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I knew I needed to lose weight but I waited for my doctor to tell me that after my vacation from PI where I loaded on carbs. By then I was expecting it. Sometimes we need an authority before we act on it and a compelling factor. For me it is my health.
If you look at it that way plus the fact that you not only want to look beautiful for your loved one, you need it too for your self-esteem then you're on your way. WeightWatchers work for me because I know I could maintain for long-term the lifestyle so if South Beach Diet would suit yours, then do it. Am sure you can!
Pat, I stumbled upon this page by clicking and clicking on links. Don't ask me to retrace my steps because, I do not think I can. Toinks. Shows what too much time on my hands can lead me to. Good things. Only good things. *wink*
I hope you don't mind my presence. As always, your wit is very captivating.
If there is anyone who can do as she sets her mind to doing, it is you. I know you'll get to your minus 50 lbs sooner than you give yourself credit for.
Goodluck. But don't forget to have fun while you're at it. The journey is as precious as the destination.
*hugs*
like what i always say pat, you can do it. you will one day be successful in your journey in losing weight.
i love your site.
hi myra! you are welcome here any time. thanks for the show of support, i really need that.
yes, i do intend to have fun in the process. you know how much i love to cook, so experimenting on healthy recipes is kinda fun for me now. i just hope i can keep this up. sigh.
hi mai, thanks for the support too. i'm finding it a bit hard, but knowing that you're all behind me helps a lot.
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